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Tuesday, May 26th, 2009
5:35 pm	the school year is almost over and i am barely hanging on i hate these kids.  i had such wonderful kids last year compared to the kids i have this year.  oh my gahd.  i hate my kids.  i hate my kids.  they cut my telephone cord.  they stole my phone handle.  what the fuck. but i love my coworkers this year. i realize next year i have to be a disciplinarian nazi.  every kid will fear me deeply.  FUCKERS. this is the problem with public schools.  kids, especially from low income communities, for the most part don't want ot be there and don't care to learn much from this failing system.  so if youre too nice the kids take advantage of every opportunity to do whatever hooligans they want.  they love to fuck around cuz it's amusing as fuck to them.  they've grown up for so long respoding to threats of punishment, that that's all they respond to now.  very little positive reinforcements in the form of enhanced academia, such as a better grade or extra credit, work as rewards for them.  they actually respect you for talking to them like thyere a bunch of knuckleheads.  it's the only way to get them to be on task. (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 7th, 2008
2:09 am	nice guys finish last cuz even nice girls take advantage of you. girls have this problem of hiding things if they don't feel completely comfortable talking about it.  which means not telling the truth.  which means misleading you and deceiving you.  even though they don't consciously intend to do it, they do.  cuz they're afraid.  they don't like to be hoenst and deal with the uncomfortable truth.  they'd rather lie.  it's more comfortable for them.  girls are the biggest liars.  it's pretty much in their nature to hide things and lie.  us guys have to be tough as nails to deal with it and get the truth out of them.  i've had to give a stern lecture to a couple girls because of the stupid things theyve done.  just be friggin honest and don't lie.  it just leads to trouble.  you don't want me to get mad at you.  be honest.  i will never be mad at you if youre honest.  if you lie, youre only going to end up pissing me off. girls = biggest liars. you have to not be so nice to deal with it. it's hard to be nice when the people around you are such bitches.  fortunately, i'm not surrounded by them all the time.  so i stay for the most part nice. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 5th, 2008
6:13 am	i am first place in both fantasy basketball and fantasy football this year.  last year i got first place in both also.  it's a lot of luck and a lot of micromanagement.  but it's been paying off. if only real life could be going as well as fantasy. laugh out loud. i hate my kids this year.  my job has been extremely, extremely disappointing. (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 20th, 2008
6:00 pm	hot sex? no, thank you # of times i've rejected a hot woman's advances: 3 # of times i've questioned my sanity afterwards: 3 okay.  so ive met a lot of freaky girls at clubs and i got their numbers and never called.  whatever.  i'm sure many guys do that.  but there have been times when i've met girls who i thought were nice and gorgeous, but i turned them down.  whY?  stupid reasons.  one was because she was a couple years older than me and i thought that was too old.  another time i had to go do some volunteer work.  this UNPAID, COMPLETELY VOLUNTARY community service for some poor kids in urban los angeles.  and then just this week, this hot ass korean girl came from baltimore and said she would postpone her flight a second time if i spent the night with her and called in sick for work.  but this was a thursday night that i met her.  and i really want to make sure my kids in the biology classes i teach get a good education.  so i told her i had to go to work. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE. i am sacrificing girls for students' education.  if i had any other job in the world.  i would have called in sick.  but nooo.  i'm such a nice guy.  which makes it strange that she was attracted to me because she was saying that she doesn't like nice guys.  maybe it's because i've got these bad boy looks.  this other girl, who was very innocent and nice, i met in vegas is unsure of even having dinner with me.  because of my bad boy looks, which belie my nice guy qualities.  oh curses!  i'm a conundrum of bad and niceness!  i dont know what i want to do!  aha! my life would make a great comedy for people to just laugh their asses off. but it's going to drive me insane if i don't get some.  you know!?   (Comment on this)
Monday, July 21st, 2008
1:02 am	today, i hate my  dad.  we had a big fight.  he wasn't making any sense.  he refused to listen to me.  he called me a bastard.  i'm glad i could run away to LA tonight. (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 1st, 2008
11:39 pm	my family drives me crazy sure, my family tries to be there for me for the most part, i guess.  my dad and my older brother often agitate me.  they both share a lot of the same characteristics that can drive anyone mad.  ive fought with both of them a lot growing up.  i guess that's how i got that somewhat antagonistic side of me.  now i just ask them questions that they have a hard time answering whenever they do questionable things.  i never really looked up to authority figures nor had a role model. i never told anyone when i had these thoughts as a child but often i wanted to run away and start life anew somewhere else with other people.  with another family.  or start a family or something.  a nice normal family.  i revealed this to paul just a few years ago and he said i was weird.  so i guess i'm the only one who felt it.  running away still has its allure once in a while. but i won't run.  my family does what they can to keep things together.  and i'm grateful for that.  so i have to do the same.  i have to work with my problems no matter how difficult.  if i run it'll catch up to me in a worse way. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 20th, 2008
10:32 pm	i had one of those gouge-my-eyes-out moments. i was at vons in the aisle containing stationery, shopping for school supplies, when from the other side i hear music being played.  i look to see a girl reading through some greeting cards and i asked out of curiousity, is that music being played from the card?  she turns and looks at me for a couple seconds without saying a word and then turns back and nods.  ok....  i think to myself.  that was odd. maybe that's her way of flirting with me.  she was kinda cute.  she looked filipino.  i just walk away and continue to shop for juice. on the way to the checkout, i see her again, only this time with two other people, a middle aged man and woman, also filipino looking.  oh my gosh.  they look like her parents.  oh. my. gosh.  she looks like she could be 16 years old.  oh lja,sjdf; my ga;lskdjf;lkj gaashd;lkasjdf.  argh.    ARGH! this is not the first time this kind of thing has happened. why do asian girls between 16-26 all look the same age.  it is deceiving.  i feel sick.  i have students that age.  man this is not good.  this is pure evil.  the devil is playing tricks with me.   i need to start dating again. the end of june never looked so far away. (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 10th, 2008
1:36 pm	I'm a monster!  i've become a monster.  i was always fond of getting into intellectual discussions/debates (theyre mostly debates because most people have very different views from me), but lately it's been almost a perverse joy of mine to get into them.  it's because i have so much knowledge, SO MUCH KNOWLEDGE, and my views are so consistent and deep that i can't lose.  i pwn people.  but you know what, it's now made me very inclined to get into these antagonistic debates with almost everybody.  because i know i will always win. but do i really win? so what if i refute your beliefs?  if i prove that your deeply held beliefs are completely wrong and mine are right, are you gonna be thankful that i showed you the light of truth?  i think for almost everyone, having their long-held, emotionally attached and incorrect beliefs proven incorrect is a very uncomfortable feeling.  so why do i do it? because with our deeply held misconceptions we continue to support politicians that have the power to make our lives worse, even with their best intentions. in the biology classes i teach, i gave my students a question on their first test: good scientists  a) have good intentions b) are skeptics c) work very hard d) don't believe anything theyre told what's the correct answer? it's b) are skeptics.  meaning that they question what theyre told, they believe only things that have evidence to support them.  too many people are brought up in public schooling environments that indoctrinate the views: a) government welfare helps low-income communities b) we need to go to war to help other poor people from their evil leaders c) the government should protect us from harm d) we need the government to fix our economy and our schools and protect our children nobody seriously questions this.  instead they question whether ceo's are paid too much, whether private companies are too greedy, whether WE'RE too greedy, and we can't trust each other so we need governments to stop us from our greed and evil. instead of looking at the absurd amount of regulations that cause the problems we have today, we only look at our selfishness as the root of our problems.  naturally we blame the very economic means to our freedom and well-being: capitalism. our constant blaming of ourselves for our problems instead of looking at government actions as the source is creating an enormous amount of cynicism.  socialists are the most cynical people on earth. my colleagues at belmont high school are all extremely cynical.  in fact, i haven't met a single public school teacher that isn't miserable, bitter, or downright unhappy with their job.  the reason is easy for me to see.  public schools are government regulated education and it doesn't work.  but of course most people want more government solutions to the problems government has created.  which leads to more extortion through taxes, more regulations like No Child Left Behind.  this leads inevitably to more cynicsm and more bitterness because more government solutions only create more problems. unless we break this vicious cycle of government solutions leading to more problems that lead to more government solutions BY GETTING RID OF GOVERNMENT IN OUR LIVES, we will always be an extremely cynical group, distrusting each other, and blaming it on capitalism, freedom, and competition -- the very solutions that we haven't had. public schools are the source of this indoctrination and are the most evil institution.  pretty much everyone i know went to public schools so naturally they believe in exactly the opposite of what believe.  i will stop the indoctrination where i can.  in my classrooms, i teach my students that the key to happiness is being responsible and able to take care of themselves, i teach them a little bit of economics here and there explaining the real reasons we're in a depression instead of the fallacies that the mainstream media and public schools teachers believe in.  i am fully aware that this is almost like a one man battle, but i am hopeful that this can make a difference.  i am NOT a cynic.  i'm just a very knowledgeable, freedom-loving, super-nerdy MONSTER.  and i will fight this battle til the end. btw if you are reading this and are a socialist (which i was since i went to public schools my whole life), read www.mises.org for some enlightenment. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
12:26 am	what did i do?? i was getting along very well with this really cute girl.  then i told her i'm a huge nerd and a dirty pervert.  why did she stop talking to me???? (Comment on this)
Monday, April 21st, 2008
12:32 am	Religion If religion is defined by a deeply held belief in a set of principles -- ideological, philosophical, and even supernatural -- then I have found a religion.  It's just that I haven't met anyone who believes in the same thing. My religion is:  Naturalist Misesian Christianity. I believe scientific theories can explain the natural world, which includes us human beings.  I believe in the economic and social theories of liberty expounded by Ludwig von Mises.  And I believe in the beautiful philosophies of love and compassion taught by Jesus Christ, the son of God. all of these are just wonderful and make a lot of sense.  if everyone believed in them, i think the world would be a better place.  i believe.. at least for now... (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 8th, 2008
12:29 am	knowledge, wisdom, and elitism what would happen if you were extremely well educated, and almost everyone else wasn't?  if you realized everyone else was not thinking right, did not have a clue about what they're talking about, and were just plain ignorant due to their poor education, what would you do?  how would you view them? back in ancient greece, socrates taught his subjects great philosophical theories and they henceforth became relatively superior in their education.  unfortunately, this led to a great sense of elitism amongst those subjects.  a 'i know, but you dont know shit' kind of attitude.  it even led students to scorn their own relatively uneducated parents.  because the rest of athens was alarmed by the subjects' elitism and society's apparent verge of breakdown, socrates was sentenced to death for corruption of the youth.  (this is what i recall from sevearl years ago i might be wrong.) what do i do with the knowledge that i have that explains full well why we are in a very catastrophic economic recession?  i know exactly what caused it, what causes booms and busts and inflation and everything.  yet 99.99999% of the people i talk to do not have a clue.  heck federal reserve chairmen alan greenspan and ben bernanke don't have a clue (which is why they continue their disastrous monetary policies), let alone the president and all the front running candidates.  even my favorite band radiohead experimented with a "pay what you want" failed experiment on their last album because they have a complete and utter lack of understanding in economics. it's kind of frustrating cuz people tend to stick to their long held beliefs no matter how illogical and inaccurate.  and many are emotionally attached to them.  it's not even worth having discussions over because theyre not fun and they start to look at me in a rather negative light, like i'm an elitist or evil or something.  only one or two people i've talked to have been very open minded and actually believe some of the things i say.  haha. if you want to understand economics, real economics and not the bullshit public school version, check out www.mises.org.  i need to stop wasting my time.  i've got a lot of work to do.  i need to go back to talking about tv shows and sports and parties and fun shit like that.  it really doesn't help to try to keep proving everyone else is just plain ignorant.  at least not in discussions..   maybe an internet blog w its less personal, less in your face approach will do.  maybeeeee. (11 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 6th, 2008
12:59 pm	i feel ronery  it's been almost a year since the break up and lately i've been having a lot of fun being single and meeting lots of girls and dancing with them and stuff.  but i miss the intimacy and the warmth of a relationship.  work has been stressful and so exhausting and timeconsuming that i dont think i can pursue a relationship right now.  i am actually getting tired of clubbing and meteing girls that i dont find interesting.  i am too picky.  being picky requires a lot of time to find the person i'm looking for.  it's like trying to find the perfect apartment -- you gotta spend a lot of time looking at a whole lot of not so perfect ones to eventually settle on the perfect one.  but i don't have time.  i need a lot of luck. (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 28th, 2008
9:25 pm	white people at public schools for some reason ive experienced a lot of older white people at public schools inquiring about my ethnicity.  they look at me with a curious look.  makes me feel like a whore.  and they ask and find out. why?  i don't ask you guys about your race.  is it because you guys are fascinated that we actually have a culture that we identify with?  maybe so.  i guess i should be thankful i have that culture, along with the white american culture as well.  it all translates to more ways to enjoy life.  culture is great.  you white people wanna know if there's more to life than your mundane white ways.  yes there are.  asian culture is great.  but stop looking at me like i'm a piece of meat.  please.  it's perverted.   one old guy asked if i was chinese and when i said korean he said, "oh ahnyounghasaeyo!" in a very white guy accent and a patronizing tone..  wow, thanks for being so condescending.  ass.  i'm almost as white as white people.  my english is better than most white people's.  my korean's not that good.  stop judging me please. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 26th, 2008
5:21 pm	dancing! a way to the ladies if you're uncoordinated, awkward, shy, tense, nervous, or just plain strange in every way and cannot socialize or fit in anywhere.  there IS cure. this magical cure is called dancing!  napoleon dynamite is based on a true story: mine. well kinda. i was an extremely awkward and shy and loserish boy throughout most of hs.  until i started dancing.  it came by accident almost.  in 11th grade i had 5 ap classes and english honors with all the worst teachers that gave TONS of hw.  i was studying all day and all night and was not going out on the weekends.  so how did i stay sane?  i took dancing breaks every hour.  i imitated korean pop stars and michael jackson and usher videos.  every single day.  nonstop. whenever you practice anything, you inevitably get better (unless for some reason you're not allowing yourself to learn).  i got good at dancing.  i went to all the parties in college.  i joined a dance team and danced even more.  i was still relatively awkward but getting cooler by the day. when you're on the dance floor and you've got the moves, girls just kinda come to you.  they're attracted to a guy that knows how to move.  it's impossible not to get noticed when you look so damn hot. dancing feels good too.  at least it should be.  a few times i was in a bad mood and tried to dance and it didnt feel right.  you have to be loose when you dance.  and nonchalant.  some people dance too seriously.  take it easy.  when you don't care and youre enjoying yourself, you exude confidence and coolness.  girls love that shiz. this one girl i met recently asked me if i was a gangster or a jock in hs.  hell no i wasn't that cool.  it's just hard to tell cuz i've been dancing so long now.  daaaancin. dancin! DANCING!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: energetic (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 26th, 2008
7:26 pm	an atheist libertarian in public education it's hard to change age-old beliefs.   if youve believed in christianity your whole life, i could present all the evidence in the world that disproves creationism and certain biblical events, but you'd still be a believer.  and if you've believed in the virtues of a state-controlled economy your whole life, i could present all the evidence in the world that shows how every instance of state controls leads to a decrease in competition and wealth and increase poverty, but you'd still think regulations and taxes are good for us. at least that's what it seems like. at least the senior pastor of the last church i went to emphasized love and hope and never mentioned hell, the sins of homosexuality, nor did he denounce other religions.  i liked how he interpreted the bible and preached it. socialism is the bigger evil because no matter how small the government regulations it inevitably hurts everyone. i wish everyone would study charles darwin and ludwig von mises. evolution by natural selection.  free-market capitalism.  such beautiful theories. creationism can't hurt me.  but hmo's and other forms of government control can.  damn corporatations in bed with the government.   i intend to persuade the masses. (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 10th, 2008
11:56 pm	i saw this girl's picture on facebook and thought she was cute.  then i met her in person and she was just whatever!  damn it i hate that.  and she's probably single too since she eagerly approached me haha.  all the good ones are taken!  this sucks.  just kidding it's ok.  it's been less than two weeks into 2008. i still have time.  i am getting older every second but i will not die alone ha. ha.   ha.  (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 2nd, 2008
12:36 am	the new year, 2008 resolutions: 1. work out at least 3 times/week.  for now, work out daily until work starts again in february. 2. dress more hip.  this will be hard.  i might need help.  i have money now to buy hip clothing.  i sound really lame right now.  but soon i will be hip! 3. date new people.  i finally completely broke things off with my ex (blocked her sn, got rid of some facebook pics, etc) SO I AM MOVING ON to new and better things.  i hated her guts at times, but she was the only real relationship ive had in my life for a reason.  i think it's rare to date someone you get along so well with, let alone have strong mutual feelings for.  almost every outing together was a joyful occasion. our last date together last week was very fun and everything ended on a positive note. great, rare things we had in our relationship: 1. had a lot in common, including sense of humor, which is probably the most important. 2. loved to dance, drink, dance, and dance a lot together. 3. loved to eat everything, try all kinds of restaurants everywhere. i dont wanna dwell too much on the good things, but there were a lot in that relationship.  i remember a couple weeks after we first started going out she told me she had stronger feelings for me than any guy she had dated in the past three years.  and that i had game.  hahaha.  gahd she had made me feel so great about myself, lifting my spirits to their highest.  then at the end she made me feel completely worthless.  i was so depressed i didn't know how i was gonna get through my days and weeks. but i did and i'm A-OK now.  talked with her, and i got by with a little help from my friends.  got no regrets.  this was a tough year for numerous reasons but she was probably the biggest (and work).  she said she's not gonna be okay with us not being friends, but i dont think we can stay friends cuz she keeps doing things that bother me.  she says she always has so much fun whenever we go anywhere and that she'll miss me. well.  my time is limited.  and my fun is gonna be for the next girl. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 18th, 2007
8:58 pm	joke of the day taken from my friend danny cho's xanga: So a convent found out that the Pope would come to visit.  They also found out that he really loves to eat fish.  So one nun goes to the fish market and asks the guy, " What is the best tasting fish you got here?" The guy said, "well you are in luck sister because we have the most exquisite fish in the world.  Its called goddamn fish."  The nun was like ok let me have it.    She takes the goddamn fish back to the convent when the head nun stops her.  She asked whether or not she got fish for the Pope.  The other nun replies," Yes, I got the most exquisite fish in the world. Its called goddamn fish."  The head nun replies, " You shouldnt say that. We are nuns and we cant say the Lord's name in vain."  The other nun said that its ok because that is the name of the fish.  So the head nun takes the fish and prepares it and gives it to the priest so that he can cook it.   They serve the fish to the Pope and he is delighted because it was indeed the best fish he ever tasted.  He asks, " Who should I thank for such a great tasting fish?"  The first nun says ," Well I bought the goddamn fish."  The head nun follows by saying, "Well I prepared the goddamn fish." The priest replies," Well I cooked the goddamn fish."  The Pope replied,  "you fuckers are cool." (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 4th, 2007
10:05 pm	who do you really love?  i mean really?  i have friends that i really love, some more than others.  that doesnt sound fair, but it really is because i love them for being good friends and, in a nonhomosexual way, for loving me.  some friends are there for me more than others, and i truly appreciate it maybe more than they'll ever know.  i dont have a lot of money ((and my parents come from piss poor backgrounds and i was a middle child of four boys so they never had much in terms of money to give me)), but when i buy presents nowadays i try to put a lot of thought into them, and often, i would make a card.  i put a lot of time into cards.  i like making cards.  i also like receiving them.... when theyre also nicely thought out.  i got a card once that contained in its message "Dear David, [generic pre-written message that came with card], Love, [one of my friends]".  it was a birthday card that contained a pop-up picture.  how um cute.  she thought i would like it but i hated it. hahahaha.  wtf is that.  that takes two seconds to put together.  my favorite cards ive received were ones that were made and ones that had nice messages written on them.  i keep those.  some ive kept since high school (although ive lost some since then of course).  i love those friends who put a lot of thought into our friendships.  and a gift is greatest when there is a lot of love put into it.  expensive gifts can feel cheap, like this extremely expensive nice watch i got from my aunt even though i told her not to get it for me.  i appreciate expensive gifts too, but a bigger price doesn't equal bigger appreciation.  i want gifts that have love put in them, that shows i was being thought of in a way that shows appreciation for me and maybe even for what i like. maybe i write this because i feel like ive given a lot of love to certain people this year and didnt feel appreciated in return. , , ,     through carelessness or just cuz... some people just arent considerate enough to know how to show appreciation.  i want to be loved.   a;alsdkfj;lbkjqpoierzv.,cmqweu[ (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 1st, 2007
10:56 pm	two big purchases.  first a 24 hr fitness membership.  cost 500.00.  paid off that credit card.  second big purchase: went to skidazzle today and bought snowboard + bindings.  total cost 150.00.  december just got started.  hope my credit card bill wont go over a thousand.  we'll see. (Comment on this)